Christmas Eve at last

Hya all,
Its my first Christmas as Nicola and I'm so excited, Its like being 12 all over again, and waiting for Santa to come and leave presents... so excited at my first girly Christmas.

Last night I watched Mamma Mia! The Movie it was great to sing along and laugh to, its such a great movie to give you that "it will be all right" kind of feeling. I am now working on my voice so my next mission is singing as it helps you match a female pitch and tone. When I was young 5/6 years old I had to go to the local hospital as I spoke very quietly and in a female style, now I have to unpick all of that training somehow to sound female again, its a strange life for sure but you soon learn to adapt and change if its what you really want.

I was in the doctors waiting room this morning and thought what do I do if I need to pee which rest room do I use, as I look female most times and a bit male at other times? I guess using the one I'm most comfortable in  would be best depending on how female I'm looking at the time?
I know in some states in America its not that easy due to the law in that state, but thankfully in the UK its not quite like that, but you could easily end up in a battle with other restroom users. Women might think you could rape them? well after being on hormones this can not happen as everything changes with hormones, if you know what I mean... 
In the gents restroom you could very easily be a rape victim or at the least battered and needing hospital treatment or police help. 
Its a tough one for sure, also the venue is another thing to consider, the local boozer is perhaps not safe unless you know its trans friendly. So I tend to stick to big chain outlets that are geared up for families and visitors from out of town, as a male I could have gone anywhere and been OK, but as Nicola I find I have to pick the place and time to go out more closely.  

Need to Pee

So if you in the toilets and see a mannish looking trans-woman please, consider what it has taken for them to actually go in and pee... as they could be me. I guess at the start of transitioning you tend to stand out from the crowd as the hormones have not been taken long enough to change your body shape or regrow hair or to soften the skin etc if you looked like Kate Moss from the get go, I don't think it would be an issue but looking like you have been in a Les Dawson sketch its another thing all together.

Les at his very best...

Stay safe this Christmas and I hope Santa is good to you.