To say your trans or not?

Hi
I have read quite a bit on line about people wanting to still hide the fact your transgender and not a real female? I feel it depends on the person concerned.

Personally I find being true and just being me is a great weight of my shoulders and if people treat me any different because of that its their issue not mine, if you took the time to read my first page you will know I have struggled and build a blood big wall around me knocking down the wall for me is being true to how I am. at 6' and 90kg you’re a big woman and at 54 you’re a big old woman compared to many. Knock's I have had a few and not for being transgender, bar fights with knives been there done that, street fighting with bottles done that also, so what people say or do against me I can cope with, I can always fight back if that's the route they choose to venture down...

I think they can either accept I'm me and all of my past has shaped me to this point or start from now as a woman, I leave that choice to them at present, as the hormone injections do their magic I might change my views and hide my past but at present I think why the hell should I...

If anybody is reading this blog of mine, and are feeling vulnerable at coming out please don't think too much about what people think, as their views are shaped by their knowledge and experience just like yours are. They may be stronger at putting over their views than you are but you count and you can make changes that help you.

You must never ever give up on life, things don't always happen as you would hope, my younger cousin found she could not cope but failed to talk to me about her feelings, and sadly committed suicide by hanging... did she fix anything err no, its a form of giving in, in my world... and I don't just give in. She never knew I was there for her 24/7 she must have felt the burden too much, so you never know who is going to support you and who is going to just run for the hills.

Be strong and be you, with your head held up high, the suffragette’s never gave up did they, and nor should you.